MERDEKA!!!

 Bendera Malaysia

in just a couple of days je lagi kita akan menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia yg ke 52. wow..i totally appreciate the peace that we had. merdeka always reminds me of semangat patriotik yg perlu ade dalam setiap warga malaysia. i remember dulu2 semangat nak tgk perbarisan on the 31st august morning tuh.. sanggup bangun awal just to see the parade. the best part of the parade is always the formation part where ramai² akan form a logo for that year independence day.. best! my sister was once involved with it..sgt impress dgn semangat dia. dorang yg terlibat akan practice everyday for about sebulan jugak kalo tak silap sampai hitam lah muka tu akibat sunburn. tu smua demi malaysia.. kagum²!

not only the perbarisan, but masuk je bulan august semua pun dh tau masing² punya part to kibarkan JALUR GEMILANG. kata bulan kemerdekaan. My family pun tak terkecuali untuk mengibarkan kan JALUR GEMILANG kat depan rumah. pastu semangat kemerdekaan tu di tanam lagi dengan iklan² television yg menyentuh perasaan, membakar semangat perpaduan serta patriotik tuh smua. we surely waited for those ad yg mmg sarat dgn message² tertentu. mmg dh jd trademark kan bile masuk je bulan august nih.

tapi lately ni..kurang sparks dia. even kat tv the ad pun tak se'gah' dulu. makin lemau pulak. kempen² kibarkan JALUR GEMILANG pun kurang. macam tak de sambutan pulak. kalau dulu, merata² bendera malaysia, tp sekarang mcm kurang. mmg betul tema merdeka tahun ni 1 MALAYSIA and merata² kempen about tu. i think kempen kibarkan JALUR GEMILANG pun misti lah jalan jugak.hmm..kurang 'uummphh' lah tahun nih. slow aje..kadang² macam sedih jugak tp ape nak buat.. jd i as a malaysian, masih lagi bersemangat nak menyambut hari merdeka walaupun abit slow tahun ni..(even the company yg i work ni pun takde semangat kemerdekaan..apedaaa..tak memainkan peranan betul dorg ni..teruk!) who to blame? diri sendiri lah..i think i should voice up..tp, sapelah daku di sini..dorg 'boh' layan je. takkan nak syok sendiri pulak..

ok lah..demi menunjukkan semangat cintakan negara, entry kali ini adelah untuk MALAYSIA ku tercinta.

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SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN KE 52!!!

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MERDEKA

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MERDEKA

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MERDEKA

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1 MALAYSIA Y'ALL!!

Sebagai tanda saya menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan ini..inilah dia JALUR GEMILANG yg di kibarkan di depan rumah ku!

Hypocrisy

Hey there! How's your Ramadhan going? Still standing? I surely hope so.

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Well, after finishing ( not done yet actually. i need a break. kepala otakku tersangkut dh) my work, i was bloghopping for a while. you know, jz freshen up my brain for a moment dek kerana tak dpt memerah otak lagi utk meneruskan kerja. tak lah lama pun, cz i ter'stopped' at this blog. memula mcm not into it, but since i jz need to look at something different, i take a tour. after reading a few entries, i found myself touched by what the blogger had post. somehow it makes me think of something that ive never ever thought about. i think that's 1 of the good thing reading blogs aite? i like the blogger's positive vibes and never ever use a nasty word. i like the idea of not using blogs to let out the pain, anger or smacking others behind their back. in fact the blogger try to express it the positive way.

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that's nice isnt it? that's the power of being honest or being who we are betul tak? sometimes we blogs bukan untuk meraih simpati (depends on tujuan masing2 utk berblogging). as for me i jz nak share my thoughts to the anyone out there who happens to stopped at this blog, to get oppinion lain. nanti tak lah kita rasa yg kita selalu betul. that's all.

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im jz being me where ever i go. is it wrong for not talking to people who i dont trust to be a good friend? i mean i do talk, only when it come to something important. other than that, i just keep quiet. being an anti-social person "here" (the place where got the people i dont trust to be a good friend). not just good friend but i dont trust them as a friend either. is that bad? the world need hypocrisy is it? pretending? in my situation, i think im avoiding myself from talking behind their back. this situation turns out not so good in terms of mengeratkan sillaturrahim, but i manage not hearing anything that menyakitkan hati. am i actually running from my problem? do i need to pretend to like them where the fact is i dont. im like invinsible "here".

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the thing is i like it this way. where i dont care about them and they dont care about me. it is like we never met, dont know each other and they dont exist! yeap it works for me. im no longer feel offended by what ever it is their doing. then i was told that i shouldnt do what i do-being myself. i was told to pretend that nothing bad happens between us, being professional. so, being quiet is not professional? talks to only important stuff is not pro enough? ive put the misery out of my head and what ive been through makes me becareful of what i say n do. so ist it wrong being me-avoiding myself from being hurt lg?

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i must say there's good side and not that good side of hypocrisy. i bet everyone pun a hypocrit including me cz hypocrisy is about pretending aite? we do need it sometimes but not all the time. in my case i choose not to pretend in this situation cz i dont want to. it'll only lead to a lot more pretending and im getting tired living in those lies. from my finding, yes! truth does hurt but at least we know the truth and do u like to be lied all the time? hmm...

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i choose the cold hard truth rather than being lied. which side are you? the hard truth or the hypocrisy which tells u what u want to hear?

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Keghairahan Menyambut Ramadhan

Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan!!

Sebelum meneruskan entry ini, rasanya masih belum terlewat untuk saya mengucapkan Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak kepada readers blog ini (walaupun mungkin tak ramai.. ^_^). Mudah-mudahan Ramadhan kali ini di peroleh berkat kepada saudara saudari sekalian..


Ececeh..sekali sekala ber'formal..apesalahnyer kan?


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Entry kali ini mengesahkan keghairahan para muslimin n muslimat kita yang menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan. Seperti biasalah kan, setelah di umumkan oleh Penyimpan Mohor Besar Raja-Raja akan tarikh umat Islam di Malaysia menyambut Ramadhan, umat Islam akan menunaikan solat sunat Tarawih pd malam sebelum mula berpuasa keesokkannyer.


As for me, excited nyer nak sambut Ramadhan ni..i pun amik keputusan utk balik awal dr kerja full time n part-time job i for that day. I guessed org lain pun sama cz i stucked in traffic for nearly 2 hours! Dalam Shah Alam je tuh ok?! 2 hours! Fuh, dlm hati mmg terasa sgt tension tp nekad lah dlm hati, sempena nak sambut Ramadhan ni..tingkatkan lah kesabaran sikit.



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Enuf with the traffic, i've decided utk terus shoot ke masjid lah since it was nearly time for Isya'..bergegas lah for i would not want to miss my maghrib also. (darn that traffic jammed!!). Sesampai je di masjid, terkejut jugak lah dgn sambutan meriah muslimin n muslimat nak nak menyambut bulan yg penuh mulia ini. Terasa mcm dh nak raya. Excited nyer i time tuh. First time ok pi Tarawih sorg2! Direct from office pulak tuh..ternyata terlalu excited nih..hehehe..


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After Maghrib, Isya' and Tarawih all together berjemaah, i pun beransur lah untuk balik. Take Note that i cuma buat 8 je for i terasa sgt lah tired lepas tu. Dinner pun belom lg, mandi apetah lagi. Melekit dh rsnyer badan ku ini, tapi i felt so so happy cz berjaya jugak join kemeriahan nak menyambut Ramadhan AlMubarak ini.





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My happiness itu tak lama! As i walk to my car..dgn harapan dpt balik awal n makan n berehat or even tido awal utk bangun sahur esok..my car kena BLOCKED dgn this bloody idiot's car (a black MYVI)..Im so PALANG any MYVI sekarang.. You know what, he (owh yes, the owner is a HE!) only kluar after 20..gud for him lah buat penuh..but my hati nih dh berasap² dah tahan marah. Why i called him bloody idiot? Cz HE IS! Damned I'm so mad at him! Hey come on lah ok, maybe he's late for tarawih..fine nak block..but be responsible lah..leave in your phone number or jgn tarik handbreak tu so that we can push ur car aside or terus tolak masuk tasik!! FYI,he blocked 2cars..mine and sorg pakcik tu..Lucky that pakcik buat 20 je, no need to wait lama giler nak mati mcm i. Bygkan lps abis 8 tuh i'm waiting for him..tak berasap kepala? He only kluar after 20 yg betul² abis org bc doa smua and end up selawat ke atas nabi kita Nabi Muhammad S.A.W..antara yg paling lambat kluar. PERGH!!!!! Mmg kesabaran ku di uji.



I waited in anger..sgt..yang amat..TERLAMPAU MARAH!!! While i was waiting, ade lah gak try push dat car..tp dia tarik handbreak. Then akibat tersangat lah tak tahan marah..i toreh² dat car dgn batu, amik my streering lock (besi solid) hentak keta dia..pecah kan cermin keta dia, and lepaskan handbreak dia..Of course lah tak!!! Iwish i dpt do that but that is all in my head je. I tak sanggup ok..mana nak sampai hati. Tgkkan plate number WRE 1X4X....keta baru lg nih. Phm lah perasaan kalo keta baru ditoreh² kan, but who cares..the owner tak paham plak perasaan marah org lain yg mbuak² nih. In the end, i jz waited in my car n berfikir..DUGAAN nih..Fikir balik kesilapan lepas² maybe this is the payback. So i jz waited there n bermuhasabah diri. Calming myself down dgn fikirkan all the positive thoughts..ALHAMDULILLAH i manage to calm down. Then came the pakcik sebelah yg pon sama mcm i cuba menahan marah nyer i guessed.


Pakcik tuh tny lah dh berape lama tgu and i just smile n cakap "dr lepas 8 lg pcik..tak balik rumah pun lg nih..dr tempat kerja ke sini" ...that felt good..mcm let go the anger by sharing the frustration..Pakcik tuh bersama ahli keluarganya pun waited dgn penuh kesabaran..Then nmpk lah kelibat sorg mamat ni. Berambut panjang (diikat) n berkopiah..Tgk d whole family pakcik nih (yup quite ramai) tgh bersandar kat keta mamat ni sambil peluk tubuh. He came then unlocke his car (by alarm) nk bgtau tu keta dia lah..dgn muka yg mcm agak bersalah n tak tu ckp.."mintak maaf lah.." Then without further ado, terus pakcik tu kuarkan tazkirah skit while that time i'm in my car (pintu keta buka) but i cudnt hear much cz pakcik tu ckp dgn sgt berhemah.







TIBA-TIBA.......







Pakcik tu brought that mamat in front of me while im sitting in my car dgn pintu yg terbuka tuh..he said " kamu mintak maaf kat kakak nih!!!!! dia tgu kamu dr lepas 8 lg td tau! Baru balik kerja..mintak maaf kat dia!!" i was like...WOW! Drama!! Mcm being in 1 of Yusoff Haslam's drama or something mcm tuh..My thoughts was blank for a few sec. Then i was like..this is my time..HAMBUR this guy habis habisan!!!! Amik steering lock tuh hentak skit kepala dia bg dia ingt! But then again..it was all in my head je..ALHAMDULILLAH ade kesabaran+i dah pun calm down ms tuh..All i said was "Bro, lenkali kalo nak parking tuh jgn lah menyusahkan org lain! (as calm as i can be)"..KAGUM!!!! hehehe.. "Kalo yer pun lambat..." tak sempat menghabiskan ayat ku..dipotong oleh pakcik tu yg mungkin sedang sedaya upaya melepaskan kemarahan nyer secara berhemah. TQ pakcik tolong bg tazkirah tuh kat mamat ni altho i rs kalo pakcik tuh sergah se'pound' dua would be lg bagus biar melekat dlm kepala hotak dia.


haa~ dat's how my excitement goes sempena nak menyambut bulan puasa nih..



How's ur story pulak? Anything like mine yg keretanya di blocked org lain yg sesungguhnyer mmglah tak bertanggungjawab..SGT INCONSIDERATE!!!?


Anyhow..Just nak wish you all HAPPY FASTING!!!


Felt relieved kan bile dh let it off your chest? Hmmm...



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Decision making

I was saying to myself "menyesal pulak tgk ad PENGAMBILAN PENGAJIAN PASCA SISWAZAH ni". It really spoiled my mood di pagi hari ini. Im not blaming anybody but myself. Gatal nak tgk sape suruh, kan sendiri yg stress.

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Actually, i was thinking to further my study ke peringkat yg seterusnyer but i have no confidence at all. Keep thinking that i'm not ready yet. Maybe..maybe i am not ready. The thing that makes me looking fwd to that is because biasalah, keadaan sekitar yg mendorong ke arah itu.



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I know that sekarang ni, setakat degree level tu nothing dh lah. It is not enough. Yup, noted! The thing is im not ready..yes, im not ready..but then the question "when are you ready?!" pop up..Ah SHOOT~ mengapa lah that question popped up. Is that question is actually a sign? (byklah sign kamu..)..And now im MISERABLE!


Ok lets try n sort things out 1 by 1.. AAAARRRGHHH!!!! what the **** am i talking about.. Sort things??!! I cannot even think straight right now, lagi nak sort things out. Might aswell i put things aside dulu and bile i dh able to think dgn waras, maybe i should think back about this.

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lama ok..it's a tough decision

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and after dh ok n boley think straight.. i come to this conclusion.. It doesnt satisfy me either, but i guess it is the best thing for now.

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Im not going to futher study yet, well at least not this year. The reason for not to take the next step is because i got lots of things lining up. I dont want money to be an issue, but it is a BIG ISSUE for me. For now je lah dulu kot..insyaALLAH lepas ni shoud be ok..i hope so. On top of it, i actually still having a vague image of my future. I want to focus on gaining as much experience in accounting field baru move on to the next step. I may do both at the same time but as for now, tak kot..I'm jz affraid that i couldnt juggle them. Maybe next year, afterall it's never to late to learn kan? Yang penting semangat nak belajar n memajukan diri tu.


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I can see where im heading to now and i must thank the ALMIGHTY for showing me a way (always keep faith in HIM)..Dengan izin NYA, maybe i'll further my study next year. Lets just pray for it to happen. When there's a will there's a way.. I know myself and pedulikkan ape org nak kata. My life, my decision aite? Of course perlukan moral support from family n frens jugak. I just need to work harder and pray harder..


Be strong yemma! Next year maybe..Do pray for the best for me jugak k..

Thank you ALLAH. Thank you friends. Thank you readers..(like i have many..hahahah)



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im so in ♥..

Ok..up untill today br i realize that i got crushed on jackets n slingbags!! OMG, mmg cudnt resist the temptation once my eyes dh berkenan..how²?



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The story goes when i was looking at the clothes kat dlm store tu..then ttbe my eyes caught this jacket kat this patung. At that time i was like, eh nice betul lah. Then, i looked for it, cari² di manakah terletaknyer that jacket? Takkan lah ade 1 tu je kan? The moment i rs mcm give up nak cr, then suddenly i saw ia bergantungan.. BYK lagi..hehehe.. Belek² the price, belek² the material, belek² itu ini then terlintas lah di kotak fikiran ku utk try it on. After it's a jacket,tak pyh ssh² queue kat fitting room. The moment i sarung....AHHH~ tak terkata perasaannyer (if u have passion on something, bygkan u r right in front of it and dgn perasaan HARUS DIBELI ini item)..That shoud do kot to describe my likey on that jacket. It may look plain/biasa je on org lain, but who cares wut others think..


BETUL TAK?!


Tak pe if org tak suke cz that'll make u one of a kind or dorg boley jugak kata u r a freak.

Akan tetapi, look at keadaan sekarang ni..nobody cares of wut u wear, how u wear it dh. I once was told that berfesyen is all abt self-confidence. No matter wut u wear, how u wear it, as long as u got confident n comfortable (haruslah!!)..i bet the msg sampai to ppl out there. sebagai contoh, u wear it like u r a diva..feel it n im totally sure that ppl will look at u the same..but of course (harus lah sekali lagi ditegaskan) berbekalkan self-esteem yg tinggi.


As for me, be true to yourself. U r wut u wear. Dont think of wut ppl might say, cz they'll say it whether u like it or not. U dont wear something to impress ppl aite?(wz talking abt the casual wear)..and if u do nak impress ppl, i must say done over do it. Petua ku, comfortable n confident..


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Without much ado, i present u the jacket that i fell in ♥ with..


tadaa...


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the 1 yg that gurl pakai ok..


definitely will go in my wishlist..I got a long one..hahaha


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