Day 3 - Your idea of the perfect first date

Perfect first date ay? Hmm..

The perfect first date will be a simple day out where you can be yourself, where you accidentally make fool of yourself, where you are trying hard to be perfect but it turns out to be the worse of you but yet the day ends smoothly and the person accept you for who you are, it surely is the perfect first date.

Sape yang boleh terima kita when we are the worst of ourselves means orang tu maybe the perfect person untuk kita.

Day 2 : Your Favourite Movie

Erm..seriously tak tau nak cakap what's my favourite movie because I loike most movies I watched. Habeh camno?

Hoccay lah..below are a few that came across my mind at the moment. Kira favourite la jugak kan sebab ianya antara yang kita ingat dalam banyak-banyak tuh.

Shawshank Redemption

 Cool movie jugak nih. It's about sorang banker yang caught her wife with someone else and being accused for murdering his wife padahal dia tak buat pun. So, dia kena life sentence and what he do dalam penjara Shawshank tu was digging his way out. When he's out, dia jadi orang kaya.

and the 2nd one is

 Charlie and the chocolate factory

 

First I like the movie sebab it's about chocolates..hahah and second sebab Johnny Depp yang berlakon.

30 Days of Blogging

Hoccay..I nak take part jugak lah dalam 30 days blogging challenge ni. sedang I blog hopping sekali ter'come' accross this and I said "menariknya..nak buat jugak lah". So here I am. 

Dear zezzaty and yat, thanks ya for it. Now I want to start..

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim...

DAY 1 : YOUR FAVOURITE SONG

I must say 

Have You Ever by Brandy

Love the lyric, love the song. Touching babe plus my ex-boyfriend yang kasi. Haha..memang lah Ex sebab now sudah menjadi Mr.H kesyayangan mommy and Armani boy.

Hope you like it too!

Fa Wau Nun Dal Ya Kaf

Firstly, my appology to all readers for such a 'nice' word for a title of my entry today. Sejujurnya, haku memang sangat hangin dengan Kolig-Kolig ku. 

I know, every where also got the same problem. Tak apalah. Apa yang I nak state here is that, sesape yang berjawatan pegawai tu jangan lah nak 'act' sangat. Walaupun kamu senior, kena hormat jugak orang bawah kita sebab tanpa mereka kamu akan kesusahan nak buat kerja. Kata work as a team, jadi buat lah cara team mate. Jangan nak berlagak bos sangat hoccay! Come on, everyone also want KPI tinggi. Jangan suck up sangat hoccay. Rimas babe, rimas! 

Jangan nak tunjuk pandai sangat because you never know that actually that person sebenarnya lagi bagus dari hang. Ingat tu! Kang malu sendiri baru tau. Setakat kerja kat kompeni Sendirian Berhad half of your life dengan meleis je, jangan nak berlagak sangat. Nak KIASU pun berpada-pada lah.

Ok lah..buang karan je blog about this. Dengan itu saya sudahi entri saya ini. Daaa~

Lagi cerita pasal Breastfeeding!

Again? Hangpa layan je lah ek. Kalau tak mau tak pa. 

Yes, today nak cerita lagi pasal breastfeeding. Owh sedey! Sedey babe baca entri kak Farah Farhan Sarakids tu. Terharu pun ye. Walaupun I tak dapat nak join the event, tak nak pergi sebab sedey I tak fully breastfeed my baby, I still follow the updates. Memang teringin sangat tapi tak pe lah. Maybe next time.

Betul cakap dia, perjalanan breastfeeding ni tak mudah. As for me memang tak mudah. Tak mudah maintain production. Tak mudah nak control makan sebab whatever yang kita makan akan jadi susu which baby juga akan dapat. Tak mudah sebab nak menyusukan baby ni kena banyak sangat bersabar dan juga beristiqamah. Jangan riak dengan stok susu yang banyak juga untuk menyusukan baby, kena pasang niat yang betul sedari awal kita mengandung.

Perjalanan menyusukan baby I memang tak mudah mungkin di sebabkan niat yang tak betul sedari awal. Ya betul, niat yang salah sedari awal. Memang I insaf babe! Insaf gila. Pengajaran buat I. Lets just not talk about it lagi. Barang yang lepas, jangan lah di kenang-kenang. Cuma, belajar dari kesilapan.

Walaupun tak fully breastfeed, I'm thankful for it jugak. At least I still ada susu. I mean I still can direct feed my baby. Tak kisah cukup or tak, I feed my baby directly whenever he's with me. Campur jugak with FM but I wont stop pump and direct feed him. I believe susu ada je. Sentiasa bersyukur ada lagi susu untuk di feed baby. Till the last drop babeh! Till the last drop. And in between that, mommy wont stop at any cause to create demand for the milk.

Haih~ inilah I whenever cite pasal breastfeeding. 

Tengok lah si tenit I yang mengubat segala stress I. As long as dia sihat walafiat, fully breastfeed or not, I tak kisah but selagi ada, he'll get every drop. 

Mommy loves Armani boy!

 

Big Boy

Ini adalah entri edisi 'Mommy kerinduan'. Baby boy mommy ni genap
3bulan sehari selepas aqiqah nya itu hari! The day before Armani Boy
baru pandai ketawa. Best betul! Terubat stress mommy, baby dear.

Dah pandai nak bersembang dengan orang. Dah pandai tengok tv. Dah
pandai respon dengan kita. Dah pandai belajar. Dah pandai tak nangis
sangat. Waaahh..dah banyak pandai ek anak mommy ni.

Kejab je dah 3bulan. Rasanya macam baru 3minggu lepas mommy lahirkan
Armani Boy ni. Cepat betul masa berlalu kan? Rasanya macam banyak lagi
yang tak sempat buat with Armani Boy.

Genap 3bulan, berat Armani Boy 5.2kg and panjang 60cm. Waaah..dah
berat tak xnmpk chubby sgt pun. Rindu lah baby mommy ni.

Majlis Aqiqah & Doa Selamat Aimar Armani B Mohd Ashraf - Teaser

Wah...title entry tak leh panjang lagi kah? Hehehe.. Fedulik lah, entry haku, haku punya fasal lah. Huhu.. Kidding.. Yup, the title dah cukup complete menyatakan ape entry kali ini is all about.

Pertama sekali haruslah mengucapkan jutaan terima kasih kepada my childhood friend's hubby yang telah sudi untuk menjadi photog kami. Tanpa dia maka tiada lah gambar yang menarik. Honestly to me aqiqah sangat special. It's like your solemnization la. Moment of your life. Jadi oleh kerana itu sanggup ku spend for good pictures of my son biar dia dapat tengok bila besar sikit lagi nanti. Terima kasih to them yang sanggup datang awal, seawal 'tuan rumah pun tak siap lagi'..heheh. Thank you ye.

Alhamdulillah..semuanya berjalan lancar. I leave you with the teaser pictures of it ya. The rest belom dapat lagik.

My boboboi!

This Armani Boy made me wake up at 5 just to play and learn! Nasib lah
last nite Mr.H dah dload his fav song. Melayan lah si tenit ni di pagi
hari. Ingatkan nak tidor dah lepas tu. Rupanya tidak!! So cute lah
kamu boboboi mommy!

'Terrific' Thursday

I HATE FILING!!!

Dan sebenarnya...

Ya, dan sebenarnya ini bukan entri about Yuna- Dan Sebenarnya tau. Saje letak picture dia just because i like her jacket. Huhu~

Dan sebenarnya draft after draft after draft have I made but none of I I post. Bukan tak mau finish what I've start but more to takde mood nak tengok balik and amend here and there or even add up apape. Jadi kesudahan nya terbengkalai je. Lately ni memang takde mood at all. Works are hiking up. Time pulak never seems enough to me. Kadang-kadang I wish to have more night time to spend more quality time with my son and have lotsa time more for myself. If only I can devide myself into 2. If only lah kan? Anak needs more time with his mommy, tapi apa dayaku kerja tak berapa mengizinkan. Mommy terpaksa pretend rajin sebab nak KPI tinggi balik lambat just because dengan cara tu je dorang judge you bagus ke tak bagus kerja. Crap kan? Ya tell me about it.

Dan sebenarnya its gonna be a long entry nih. Entry luahan perasaan. Perasaan seorang mommy.

#1

Dan sebenarnya i feel like a total failure for not being able to fully breastfeed my baby. Susu kurang, tak cukup susu, production susu sikit or whatever they call it, the supply didnt meet the demand of my baby. I dont know why, I dont know if it's me or not. Entah lah, dah tak de rezeki kot but mommy will not simply give up ya. Perah je setiap hari selagi ada and selagi keluar. Mommy keeps praying for the milk supply ada selama yang mungkin. I'll feed him with my milk or whats left with me till the last drop. Tak pe lah nak tak dapat banyak, sikit pun jadilah ye.

#2

Dan sebenarnya...sometimes I feel rimas. Rimas dengan interference from both side of parents. I feel so berdosa saying this, but hey this is just me spilling out on how i felt. Baik my side baik Mr.H's side. Sama je semua! No offense ye. True that somehow, sometimes we really needed our parent as a guideline for us. Need their advice, need their help but at the same time, we dont need them at all. Confusing? Yeah, me too. I need them and I dont need them. Cane tuh? Made up your mind gurl! Ok maybe I can put it this way, I need their help and advice but I needed it for me to do it on my own. Not telling me what to do and what's not. Not telling me it's not the right way to raise your kid. I dont need that. I need an opinion, I need them to share their experiences. Not simply do whatever they think right for my baby. Kecik hati ok! Come on, give your kid a little trust here. I'm a mother now. I need to learn to raise my kid myself. I need not to repeat their mistakes in raising kids so that the next generation will be better than us. Kalau keep doing apa yang nenek moyang kita dok buat dulu, sampai bila nak berkembang. Improvise ye..Improvise! Not that apa yang dibuat turun temurun tu tak bagus. Yang bagus kita amiklah. Yang tak bagus tu eloklah kita tinggalkan. Pening ok dealing with all these. Tapi I tak  tau nak buat cane. Dan sebenarnya, lebih banyak lagi dari apa yang tersurat di sini.

#3

Dan sebenanya...saya sangat penat nak pretend and trying my best to fit in with this environment kerja. Dan sebenarnya...stress kerja memang tak boleh kita lari. Hadaplah walau camne pun. Redha je. Dan sebenarnya setelah I  menaip sampai sini, terus rasa takde mood nak cite pasal kerja ni. Terlalu banyak mengundang negative vibes lah. Lagi pun nanti haku buat dosa pulok mengata depa-depa yang kat sini. Baik lah tak yah.

#4

Dan sebenarnya...diri ini sudah lapar kerana sudah sampai waktu makan. Oleh itu, I'm off to lunch ye peeps. Thanx for reading, if  you manage to read up to this point. Haha..Thank you. I really appreciate it.

When there's a will, there's a way

Ya, saya sangat bersetuju dengan tajuk entri kita pada kali ini. Definitely when there's a will there's a way. Kenapa? Kerana entri kali ini adalah mengenai saya yang telah kecundang kini seolah-olah mendapat sinar harapan baru. Ceeewaahh! Sinar harapan lah sangat, tapi I hope there's still hope.

Semalam, I met this 1 pharmacist. i dont know how, I dont know where I got guts I just dont know. All I know suddenly I befriended with her. Well to me it may be a sign or it's just another coinsidence. Tak kisah lah apa pun, tapi pertemuan semalam telah mengubah fikiran saya abit.

I was once given up in fully breastfeed. Mengalah, redha lah konon-konon tak apa lah tak dapat fully breastfeed and nak kasi je baby what's left with me. It didn't occur to me langsung yang sebenarnya my thought tu sebenarnya thought orang yang putus asa. No wonder production makin low. Yes, walaupun I've already mixed EBM and FM, tak bermakna I cannot fully breastfeed my baby kan? My friend berjaya fully bf walaupun at 1st she needed to topup with FM. Kenapa tak I? Why why why?

That kakak pharmacist taught me to express breast milk using hand. I punya lah tak reti dulu nak express milk guna tangan je turns out senang! Of course lah 1st try tak dpt banyak. Ia di bantu jugak dengan expressing using electric breast pump but it surely ada abit of improvement in the quantity. Owh suka!

I feel

Tidak semena-mena, I regreted that I've given up for a while there. Now I've found my strength back.

There's a will there's a way aite? Jadi..

Alhamdulillah. I really thank god i met her semalam. Never miss praying for help. Semoga i berjaya.

Healthy..happy

Itulah kita manusia selalu lupa nak bersyukur.Bila dah ditarik satu
nikmat, baru ingat nak bersujud berterima kasih.Nope,tak tujukan
kepada sesiapa pun.Sekadar mengingati diri sendiri aje. Syukur lah
sound nya masih elok. Doa-doa harap diberikan kesihatan yang baik agar
dapat menunaikan tanggungjawab dengan lebih sempurna.InsyaAllah..Amin.

Those are...

my felt project. i must tell u its 90% complete cuma xtau nk lekatkn
ke x.huhu..gedix bukan?

The best moment

This is the best moment armani boy n I had. Will miss this moment a
lot. In case baby mommy get to see this later in the future, mommy
loves u a lot dear. Not being able to fully breastfeed u is the most
frustrated feeling Ive ever felt. Yes I do feel like a failure but Ive
promise myself, u'll get whatever milk I have in me. Every single
drop! Muuuuaaahhh!! Grow healthy my lil boy!

My lil hero!

My lil boy will turn 3month old next week. I miss my boy while Im
blogging this.Huhuuu~

testing

ok lets try live blogging

Sent from my iPhone

No more sad stories

And for that peeps, I end up my sad stories. All my sad stories will turn to happy stories dah sekarang. Breastfeed or no breastfeed, I dont wanna think anymore. I'll feed my baby with what's left of me and will keep on making demand. Mommy will not give up. 

To tell the truth, I'm too down to blog these few weeks back. Allah je yang tau. My friends je yang tau how down I felt. Namun ku kuatkan jugak semangat. Well, think of a bright side, baby sihat ALHAMDULILLAH. Baby happy ALHAMDULILLAH. Life has to move on. Memang tak seperti yang kita nak kan tapi we have to learn to love and appreciate. 

Bye bye sad stories..

Ok baby armani mommy. Mommy bangkit dengan semangat baru. Banyak lagi perancangan untuk baby yang perlu kita teruskan and make it work. I'm a failure if I just sit and whine and mourn about the past. Kita usaha bersama ye baby. Chaiyuk!! 

Mommy nak simpan duit beli kasut ni baby..hahaha..