Curiosity~

Actually I got 1 entry to be posted but I'm too depressed to blog it out today.

What will you think if someone who you considered her/him as a friend, bestfriend instead so suddenly push you away from being your friend. Well at least it looks like you are being pushed away as a friend.

Pelik kan? Well, I tried to be positive. As positive as I can be, but things did not make sense. Just before things happen, we were good! Though masing-masing busy with our own life, tapi we are still good friends.

It happens a few weeks before Raya. I called a few times but no answer and so I thought she was busy or something. Few days to Raya, I gave another call but still the same. I decided to text her. Still, nothing from her. I even called her mom asking for her and I was told that her son was sick. So I just ask her sister to send her my regards. Text her some Hari Raya message but still NOTHING.

Through Facebook?

Sudah! Tapi masih diam membisu. Ada a few updates on her FB and I did drop a comment. Few weeks after Raya nih, gave another try on calling her and still nothing. The best part is, I tried to ask some of my other friends whether they have any news on her. Ye lah, manalah tau dalam kesusahan ke sebenarnya. No one knows. Fine~

Tak tau lah if it's a sign or what, I YM my friend asking about her and my friend said why dont you just YM her, she;s online now. ONLINE? NOW? My YM clearly showed her name is OFFLINE!

Apakah?

I'm just so curious. If i ever did her wrong, I'm always ready to ask for her to forgive me. Rasanya macam takde je sebab sebelum nih ok je.

What do you think? Dia dah tak mo kawan ek? Well, tak apa lah. Redha. I've tried my best to reach her tapi seems like tak nak di hubungi je.

I just hope that she's ok and everything is fine.

If she ever read this, I'm actually worried about her.

Is it possible?

This is a just short entry. I'm thinking of being a Working At Home Mom (WAHM) tapi i have no idea on what to do, how to do and is it possible for me being one?

Orang kata nothing is impossible, cuma perlukan usaha yang gigih serta kecekalan, kekentalan mental, emosi dan semangat. The question is, do I have it all?

Ya ALLAH, aku perlukan petunjuk mu Ya ALLAH..

Is it me or else?

Kenapa ya I feel macam ada orang tak suka I dekat office ni?

Positive yemma positive!

Mainan perasaan je tu. Clear your thoughts. Think of the baby. Oh baby, you really brings the best out of me.

Oh Emosi~

Oh well, tengokkan title entry pun macam tak semegah je kan? Memang tak megah pun. I'm not sure whether the feeling is because of pregnancy or saya memang seorang yang penuh emosi! *Sigh*

Hari ini hari Isnin, nekad bangun dengan senyuman dan menempuhi 'Monday Blues' dengan as colourful and wonderful as I can be. Nekad tuh, jangan memain. Sesampai je di pejabat yang 'terchenta', hati ni seakan berdebar pulak. Kenapa nih?

Owh ya, baru teringat yang semalam 'Company' ada buat Open House, kena bertugas sampai pukul 4, tapi dengan selamba ku balik pukul 3 kerana kaki ku dh macam nak tercabut dah berdiri. Seperti yang di jangka, Sang BOS panggil tak lama selepas waktu pejabat bermula. Biasalah lecture kenapa balik awal semalam. Hello BOS, kaki saya dah macam nak tercabut dah tau. I'm sorry lah couldn't make it till 4pm, sekaligus di cap sebagai pekerja yang tidak committed terhadap tugas. I might not be tough macam your wife or officemate perempuan yang lain yang eventhough baru 6month preggy tapi still larat buat kerja-kerja yang di'perintah' kan, tapi I did my job okey! I did it with all my heart - ikhlas tau! Seronok tengok ramai yang datang and gelagat budak-budak yang round berapa kali mintak duit raya.

Buat kerja pun salah, tak buat lagi lah salah. Terasa sangat tidak dihargai ok. Terus demotivated untuk menempuh hari 'Monday Blues' ni. Baby mommy pun senyap je, tak gerak after mommy down with emotion. Agaknya baby mommy ni paham perasaan mommy dia. Mommy loves you baby! Don't worry because mommy will be stronger everytime mommy think of you.

Matlamat hidup dah focus untuk baby mommy ni je. I want you to be better than me. Kerja tak makan gaji macam mommy sebab sometimes orang tak appreciate kita, tapi as long as you work kerana Allah, Allah appreciates you and HE will reward you with the reward that sometimes kita tak nampak. Oleh itu sentiasa bersyukur ye baby.

Ok dah melalut. Itu lah emosi preggy lady macam I.

Oh emosi~

Breastpumps

Last week I've been busy surveying on breastpump to prepare myself for fully breastfeeding my soon to come out baby nih. Bermacam-macam jenis dan brand. Pening kepala nih nak membuat keputusan. I did some study on which is good and memang VALUE FOR MONEY. Yup, we are on a tight budget skit.

If only i berkemampuan to buy I'll definitely get myself this breastpump

Medela : Swing Breastpump with 2-Phase Expression

RM799.00

An electric breastpump which perfectly adapts to the daily routine of a dynamic mother. Ideal for occasional or frequent pumping – handy, trendy and quiet. Winner of 2006 Medical Design Excellence Award.

- With 2-Phase Expression®

- Ideal for out and about

- Gently massaging SoftFit™ Breastshield

- Electric or battery-powered

What is 2-Phase Expression ?

It is the only research based breastpump technology to mimic a baby's natural nursing rhythm. The unique combination of a rapid stimulation and slower expression makes pumping especially gentle, comfortable and efficient.

(source : http://www.mybbstore.com/ )

From my previous entry, ada 2 more yang dalam my list. Those 2 are :

Unimom Allegro Breastpump

RM338.00

Components:

• 
  
  Breast shield + Connector + Air tube
• 
  
  Bottle + Disc + Cap + Nipple + Bottle cover
• 
  
  Valve head + Membrane
• 
  
  Bottle stand
• 
  
  AC adaptor
  

  Features : 

• 
  
  Pump on the Go - Can work on 4 x AA batteries or included power adaptor
• 
  
  Mimics baby's suction - Rhythmic suction-mimics natural baby's suction allowing faster let down.
• 
  
   Electronically controlled - Easy adjustment of vacuum and cycles rate by soft touch controls with LED display
• 
  
  BPA free bottle
• 
  
  Comfortable suction
• 
  
  Vacuum/Cycles adjustment

(source : http://www.sarakids.com/ )

The above breastpump ni was my main choice. I like the features semua, in fact i think it is really value for money to have it. Then i continue on searching the best value for money breastpump and i found out that this breastpump tak sesuai untuk heavy duty pumping. Boleh pump 2-3 times daily je. I nak fully breastfeed my baby, i think 2-3 times daily macam tak cukup. Some more I ada baca here where at least kena ada yang hospital grade breastpump which means heavy duty la. Lagipun this is my 1st baby, I wouldn't want it to use it once je then the next baby kena beli lagi..No, no, no no.. Jangan membazir. Might as well spend untuk something yang tahan lebih lama.

So I switch to this :

 

Spectra 3 Electric Breastpump

RM388.00

Spectra 3 is almost one third the size of the Spectra 2 (no more bulky pumps to lug around) which makes it ideal for home and office use.

This set contains:

Pump motor/body.

1 standard size bottle with teat and bottle cap.

1 conversion kit for wide neck bottles.

1 Breast shield set and tubing only


My biras been using this. Dia kata ni pun dah ok sangat. So I take into consideration lah but the main thing or feature yang buat I opt to another breastpump is because it can be only use by electric. Tak boleh guna battery. My biras ada manual pump so, it's not a problem to her lah kan kalau takde feature tu. To me, kenapa kena ada 2 pump sedangkan 1 boleh works with or without electricity. Ye lah, the manual is useful kalau in case you travel long distance. Mana nak carik electricity kalau dalam kereta or dalam flight, aite? In my case I memang akan travel long distance because my husband is married to orang yang ada kampung halaman nun jauh di sana. Jadi this pump is a no no to me.

Next on my quest in finding what's the best pump for me I jumpa this :

Safety Plus Portable Breastpump
RM429.00

You can read all about the features here. Semua details ada and I think this is the right pump for me. Tawakal je lah tapi InsyaALLAH betul lah keputusan me untuk membeli nya. I'm thinking of having it this weekend. Baru nak try tengok the thing macam mana in real life. Barang-barang macam ni tak berani lah nak beli online.

Owh, i forgot to tell you why I choose this. It's because it comes dengan cooler bag and 2 milk storage sekali. Hehehe. If nak beli cooler bag tu the price is puluh-puluh jugak. So, consider it done by buying breastpump ini sahaja. Cuma kena add on ice pack untuk cooler bag tu.

Next thing on the list yang important jugak to me is warmer. Dah freeze kan breastmilk misti lah nak kena ada milk warmer kan. Ok now nak pergi survey.

Betul ke?

Betul ke being preggy ni agak emotional? During 1st trimester tu yes agak tak stabil, but sekarang macam tak sangat. Tapi kadang-kadang tu ada certain things memang buat you sentap gila! I guess soalan I terjawab lah kot ek? hehehe..

Semalam a bit sentap lah. Mr. H pergi tanya my MIL to take care of our baby once dia keluar from perut nih. Bukan nya dia tak tau yang his mom macam mana. Sudah di 'sound' awal-awal anak-anak korang tak da mana nya dia nak jaga. Cari lah nursery ke orang yang menjaga baby tu. Aiseymen~

Sudah ku bilang sayang ku, your mother wouldn't want to look after our baby. (I pun kalau boleh tak nak jugak). Entah kenapa, somehow hati I abit tersentap jugak. It feels like 'macam lah I nak sangat dia jaga my baby' - ISTIGHFAR banyak-banyak. Setan-setan ni yang meracuni thoughts I.

Apa pun, I dont want to think of it. 1st thing on my mind, kat mana nak berpantang and siapa orang yang capable menjaga my baby nanti.

Is it already time to buy?

Kalau dikira-kira kan, this week my baby is turning 22 or 24week in my tummy. if convert into month my baby shud already be either 5 1/2 month or 6 month already. Baby mummy is getting bigger, so is mummy's tummy. I feel blessed and thankful and excited! Owh not to forget, nervous and scared too! I'm too happy feeling my baby moved in my tummy sampaikan I forgot things to prepare for expecting mummy. My Mr.H yang tiba-tiba reminds me of it. Seriously, feeling the baby moving inside you sangat lah meng'happy'kan. I even laugh with my baby, talking to the baby apa lah yang dia tengah buat sekarang. Kadang-kadang terasa tak selesa jugak when the baby kicks, kadang- kadang terasa macam geli-geli, and kadang- kadang terasa macam dia menggaru-garu! What ever it is, the feeling of it memang tiada galang ganti nya.( Waaah..my BM is getting good is it?) hahaha..

Ok, 6 month being preggy already. Is it the time to buy and prepare for everything? As for now, I'm just surveying baru the breastpumps and the accessories, things yang patut ada and tak perlu beli sangat. We are on tight budget. Almaklumlah miskin bandar. Hahaha. I memang dah niat nak fully breastfeed kan my baby. Selain dah makin celik dengan benefits breastfeeding ni, memang I nak bagi sebab nak the bonding between the baby and mummy tu strong!

So the 1st thing is breastpumps and its accessories lah. Some of my friends bought yg RM100+ punya je, tapi apa yang I surveyed kat baby store online ni price nya mostly RM300+. Pening pulak nak beli yang mana. Nak tau yang mana bagus yang mana tak yang mana better investment. Yelah, I'm not going to use it for my 1st baby je, untuk my future baby jugak. So here's the shortlisted breastpump. Gonna continue surveying more.

UNI MOM ALLEGRO BREASTPUMP RM 338

SPECTRA 3 BREASTPUMP RM388

Each of it pun looks ok to me just that yang spectra ni nampak convincing sikit. The Uni Mom tu the colour tu macam toys je. Hehehe. Anyone ada suggestions lagi ka? My SIL bought the manual 1 untuk pump dalam kereta. To me if i buy the Uni Mom, it can be operated using battery, so tak payah lah nak beli manual punya. 

I'm gonna continue survey the value for money breastpump lagi. Haish, how i wish money is not the matter here. Bersabar Yemma, what's the fun in it kalau everything pun you can get easily. (Hahaha, nak sedapkan hati sendiri lah ni)

Happily swimming inside mummy~

Alhamdulillah~

Tak ada apa lagi yang dapat diucapkan bila di kurniakan nikmat untuk pregnant ni. Mengalami dan merasai pergerakan baby kat dalam tummy ni. Syukur ke hadrat Illahi!

Now dah lebih kurang 22 weeks plus my baby in the womb. Well, menurut apa yang I baca by this time baby dah belajar menggenggam. Dapat tangan dan kaki. So I guess the baby is swimming and kicking kat dalam my tummy ni. The initial fluttering of the baby has turned into kicks and nudges. Yup, my tummy has become a hand magnet.

Dapat merasa movements dia every now and then. Kalau awal-awal skit dulu terasa dia moving during night je. Siang dia tidur I guessed. Sekarang every hour pun terasa movements dia. Sometimes terasa macam dia menggaru-garu dalam tummy ni. Geli!

Every night akan play my baby ayat-ayat suci Al-Quran, pasangkan headphone kat my tummy. I think my baby dah pandai mendengar. I mean all pancaindera dia dh start functioning. Nak baby dengar yang baik-baik je.

At this time, most of my pants dah start terasa ketat and tak selesa di pakai. I need more loose pants! If not berkain batik aje lah. Udah rupa bibik dah nanti.

Owh I forgot to take latest photo of me and my baby bump. Later akan di upload la ek.

Till then, daa~  

Pak Kassim Selamat Hari Raya

Before I start, nak ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua tak kira lah siapa pun, dimana pun. Raya-raya ni, entry pun kena lah berkenaan dengan Hari Raya kan? Ada satu kisah ni, happens couple years back kalau tak silap. Tak kisah lah dh berapa lama pun but the story masih lagi fresh dalam kepala ni.

Alkisah~

Setiap tahun memang akan pulang beraya ke Kelantan (this is before i get married)- my father's side, since side emak dah tak de atok nenek lagi dah. Jadi dah memang menjadi tradisi kami sekeluarga untuk pulang beraya di Kelantan. Travel by car ok! Dah tidur, bangun, tidur balik, bangun pun tak sampai-sampai nya lagi kami Labu! Travelling to Kelantan took us 8 freaking long hours! Ye! Betul! Hadap je lah setiap tahun. Apo nak buek. Nanti karang jadi cucu durhaka pulak.


Di pagi raya memang biasalah dengan sesi bersalaman memohon ampun dan maaf atas kesalahan yang dilakukan. Sob..sob..sob.. Drama lah sikit di pagi raya tu. Biasa tu semua biasa. Selepas Solat Sunat Aidilfitri, kami sekeluarga memang akan meninkmati juadah raya yang tak seberapa bersama-sama. kemudian baru sesi dramatis tu.


Biasanya raya pertama tu sedara mara lain akan datang menziarah kami, tapi tahun tu luar biasa lah pulak. Mano poie semua orang?! Takde pulak yang datang. Kan ke tak biasa tu. Jadi ayahanda decide to go to Kubur menziarahi pusara nendanya, moyang kami. Dek kerana sedang tengahari kembang dan kami yang anak-anak dara (mind you adik-adik semuanya perempuan) ni takut akan terkena sinaran UV yang akan menggelapkan kulit bagai zaman gelap ku itu, yang pergi cuma my 2nd sis n yang youngest beserta nenda terchenta - ye lah bonda dia punya pusara - Haruslah!

Nak di jadikan cerita, si adik (lurus skit orangnyer-alaa budak kecik) pun tanya lah sama omak den :

Adik : Dorang nak pegi mana?
Omak : Pergi kubur
Adik : Nak jumpa sape?
Omak : Zombie kampung pisang - Baru je lepas tayangan movie hari raya kat TV semalam.
Adik : *BLUR*
Kami : HAHAHAHAHA - ntah nape geli hati sangat tgk gelagat si adik yang always blur itu..alahai adik oh adik..

Hah.. dekat nak Asar dah, kedengaran bunyi kereta menanda kan dorang dah balik. Tak lama lepas tu, ada orang bagi salam.

Omak : Hah cemana? Ok tak?
(tanya mak kepada adik - almaklumlah iu lah kali pertama dia pegi kubur)
Adik : Hmm.. ok.
Angah : OK?! Ok pekebenda nyer, tak jumpa pun kubur nya!
Diriku : Abis tu korang pegi mana dah tak jumpa kubur nya?
Angah : Dah sampai, takkan nak balik, ayah cakap kita duduk je lah kubur memana pun baca Yaasin. Kitorang duduk je lah kubur sape-sape. Nasib lah sape yang dapat Yaasin tu.

* gelak yang giler lama dan panjang tak hengat bila dengar *

Ok sambung lagi...

Sedang dorang duduk baca Yaasin tu ada lah Pak cik ni datang..

Pakcik : Dari mana? Sedara ke dengan arwah mak saya?

OMG!!! Sebijik cerita Kassim Selamat Ok! Bukan cobaan, ini betul-betul!

* gelak guling-guling sampai rasa nak pecah perut *

Apa jadi next, korang buat lah assumption sendiri. Apa yang pasti, memang the best raya story i got and cerita ni musti akan di ulang setiap kali kami lalu di kawasan perkuburan. Biasalah, misti kena bahan kurang-kurang 5 tahun lagi kan?

Sejak dari itu, ayahanda I pun di gelar Pak Kassim Selamat oleh kami only bile lalu kawasan kubur. *hahahahah*

Pak Kassim Selamat, Selamat Hari Raya!

Esok Hari Raya! Esok Hari Raya!

Alhamdulillah I am now in my middle second trimester. Sihat walafiat. Baby seems active. Exactly 5 month old in the womb. Such an amazing feeling when i can feel the baby's moving. Terasa sangat-sangat lah bersyukur atas nikmat ni. Ye lah, ada orang been wanting a baby sampai berbagai cara tapi masih belum rezeki mereka but I have mine. Alhamdulillah!

Oh yes, the title is Esok Hari Raya and yes I'm working today. Feels like orang gila je bila kerja today. Mana tak nya, my company memamng 100% Malay. Jadi suasana or bahang hari raya tu dah start rasa seawal Isnin yang lepas lagi. Hari ni cuma berapa kerat je yang datang keja. Kenapalah haku tak hamik cuti je hari nih? Kenapa Yemma kenapa? Why? Arghhh...being mad at myself.

Ok, persediaan raya amacam? Setakat ini boleh lah dikatakan ok. Rendang ketupat segala macam yang lain tu disediakan oleh my MIL. Order saja. Saya cuma menyediakan baju raya SENDIRI je. Hahahaha. Warna tema raya tahun ni is BLUE. Honestly, i hate Hari Raya Theme!! Be it with colour, or jenis baju or anything that gotta do with theme. To me why do we need theme? Raya is raya lah! I just want my own style my own colour, my own design, Oh well, tak pe lah. Ikut je lah, but next year i will have my own colour. Tahun ni kasi chance lah,

Anyhow..I just wanna wish you all Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin! Berhabuk betul kan blog nih? Nak pi bersihkan lah nih..hahaha..Have fun ya.